“For I do not seek to understand in order that I may believe, but I believe in order to understand. For this also I believe-that unless I believe I shall not understand.”―
Me: God, great I Am that You are, what is it like to be you? Who are you?
Do you listen to every prayer? How can you possibly?
I mean, we are always asking for something. Sorry, that's a lot at once.
God: (Laughing sweetly) What is it like to be me? I am not sure anyone has ever asked that, in all these years. The best word for what it's like is whole. I feel whole. Who am I? I wouldn't describe myself as a who. Like I said to Moses, I am that. I am. I do hear every prayer, and yes, there are many. I hear, and they pass through me. My I am presence processes each prayer as it passes through my being.
Does that help? That is the best way I can describe it to you. For now.
Me: Thank you. But I gotta ask, does the suffering on Earth impact your…your… beingness?
God: Yes. You are my children. When you suffer, I feel it - in a way. Not in the way you feel things. I feel it, and that feeling helps determine an appropriate response, which is always for humanity's highest good.
Me: I gotta be honest, sometimes it doesn’t feel that way. Life is hard for so many people here on Earth. I know you know that, but I just feel like I needed to say it.
God: I hear you. It’s all going somewhere, though. I promise you.
Me: I trust you. I do. You have gotten me through some challenging times. But what’s the purpose of all of this? This creation, I mean. We seem to be out to ruin your creation. And yet you still love us? Forgive me. I have so many questions.
God: That’s just it, my darling one.
Me: Who me?
God: Yes, you. And that’s the whole point. I love you. I adore you, actually. And I forgive you. I want nothing more than your wholeness. You want to heal? You want to heal the Earth? Start with forgiveness. Forgive yourself first, then forgive others, including me. Forgiveness does not mean staying in abusive relationships, though. You can forgive but not forget, just to be clear.
You want to be in relationship with me? You want to take this to a deeper level? That’s really what this is all about. You – seeking me, asking the questions, me responding with love. When you reach out to me, just like you always pick up the phone when one of your kids calls. I will always answer. You just need to get yourself into a space where you are able to hear me, be still and know, as the psalmist writes. Like you’re doing now. You gotta admit, this is kind of cool, isn’t it?
Me: It is. It’s like we’re in conversation.
But wait, you will do this for everybody?
God: Every single one of you.
Me: That’s amazing. Just one more question...Where are you exactly? Are you in my mind? In my fingers as I type this…in my heart? I felt like you were with me on my kayak the other day. Was that you?
God: You ask the good questions. You’re not afraid of the hard questions. I love that about you. What do the scriptures say?
Me: Hmmm…well, we read that you are not in the wind or the earthquake (1 Kings 19:11-18). You are in the burning bush, though (Exodus 3:4). You fill all heaven and Earth (Jer. 23:24). You sit on a throne somewhere up in heaven (Rev. 4:2). You are always with us, even to the end of the age (Mt. 28:20), Jesus told us.
So, you are not in the destruction, but you are in heaven, and you are also always here with us. In all ways. Have I got that right? It’s hard for me to wrap my brain around.
God: I know it is. But you are doing a great job. Keep on seeking me. Keep asking the good questions. Keep praying. Regular prayer brings us closer. I am always listening, and processing, and loving you more than you can know. Remember the movie E.T.?
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