A Bereaved Mother’s Dirty Little Secret
Mother’s Day 2015 marks 24 years since the death of my sweet
daughter Meghan. She would have been 30 this year. Although I think about her
every day, certain days are more likely than others to bring up emotion. Mother’s
Day is most definitely one of them, alongside her birthday, the anniversary of
her passing and Easter, as it was the last holiday we had with her. Though time
has passed and the deep sorrow of the early days of grieving has lifted, there
are still times when the pain of the loss is more present. Mother’s Day is a
yearly reminder that this child is no longer physically present. Though joy may
have returned, on this day that familiar ache returns for a visit.
Bereaved mothers have a dirty little secret and this is it: we’re
often just a little pissed. Watching our
child’s peers grow up, perhaps get married and have children brings a strange
mixed bag of emotions. There is joy for sure in this, but somewhere deeply
buried is a chu…